Today is the day. The day that we had hoped would never be reality. But the fact is, it is reality and it starts tonight. Chad has been rotated to the over night shift at work. This is not as easy shift. It is hard. not only because of the average 2 trucks of freight every night that has to be put away in a store that only has like 2 people. But hard for our Family. Our boys are so energetic and our house is so small and echoey. I will worry every morning about him driving home and hour and 15 min after not getting enough sleep the day before. Now don't get me wrong I know that Chad is certainly not the first person to ever work the night shift. And I know that NOBODY enjoys it and it's not easy for anybody. All I can think about is 6 years ago when he was on nights. I was pregnant with Corbyn and it was a hard pregnancy. I was sick the whole time. And Chad could not be there. It was miserable and hard to let him sleep. he was depressed and so was I. I'm just praying that this time around I will be able to help our family endure this time in our life. I must be Chads support. I must take the reins. The rotation will be for 1 year (unless he gets promoted or transferred) The boys and I will have to spend lots of time outside, at parks, the library, friends homes, etc....I almost feel that I'm not welcome in my home because Chad has to sleep. It will be such an adjustment because I'm so use to being able to call or text him all day long. It helps me to get through my day. Well that is now no longer an option. I can't talk to him all day or all night because I will of course need to sleep so I'm not tired for the kids. He will work 4 nights on and 4 nights off. so that is a little better then the schedule he worked before. He will have to leave the house at 6:30pm and wont be home until after 9am. so in order for him to attempt to get enough rest he will just come home, eat, then straight to bed. Basically I will not see or talk to him for 4 days at a time. And since he will not be able to carpool anymore our fuel expense is going to nearly double. So once again we will be cutting back.
I know it's not the end of the world. I have friends who's husbands work out of town 5 days a week. I also have friends who have been on the night shift since I've know them. I just pray I can become and help my family become as strong as they are.
Ok sob fest over.
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