Restless Night

Last night was kind of a rough night for me. And there really wasn't a reason for it, it was just me being silly. Yesterday evening Chad let me know that his cell battery was going dead and he wouldn't be able to charge it until he got off, so if I needed anything I needed to call the store. Chad is supposed to be off work at 8pm but being the night before inventory I knew he wouldn't be off on time. I wasn't worried when I hadn't heard from him. I went to bed after 10pm and I my mind just started to wonder. What if Chad tried to come home to surprise me and crashed and died (I know silly right?) So I lay there in bed thinking If Chad had died how would I get through? Most people lean on their Mom's for support and comfort. Well I don't have that luxury anymore (in a matter of speaking) Yes there is Chads Mom, other Family members, Friends and lots of other people to lean on, but lets be honest nobody is like "Mom" So, If Chad was to die today who would hold my hand next month while I'm in Labor? Who would I call in the middle of the day to vent about the boys? Mom was always there, She was in the delivery room for all 3 (well except for Cole, she didn't drive fast enough) Mom, understands to the fullest my strange way of doing things. So anyway I know Chad isn't going to die today or tomorrow, And I know Mom is technically still here. But I just couldn't help but wonder. I finally got a hold of Chad around 10:45 it was a long day for him. Once I heard his voice I calmed down and was able to get a little sleep.