Wow

I'm SOOO tired. Chad brought home a movie last night so we stayed up way too late. I have some cleaning I need to do today plus 3 kids. I guess I'd better get the tape for my eyelids. I feel it's going to be a struggle today.

Changes Good or Bad.

Ok, So I'm sure a lot of you have noticed that for the last few months I haven't really been myself. There has been so much to talk about but frankly I haven't had the emotional capacity to say things out loud. Let me start out with talking about the kids. I have such great kids. Carsyn is so smart and in some cases very thoughtful. Corbyn is..well lets just say he's 3. Cole finally started sleeping through the night, and apparently we will be having another. What ever happened to the fact that I have a hard time getting pregnant? Apparently things figured out how to work. I'm 17 weeks along I'm due end Oct early Nov.
Another aspect of life is, Chad and I have been trying to figure out for the last year or so where we're supposed to be. We've talked about moving back to Nampa, we've talked about staying here, going to St. George etc... right now we just feel kind of lost. meanwhile our kids are suffering. Since we're in the apt we feel that they are being held back. I can't let them go outside because of the canal, we have awful neighbors (talking about the drug store) and We have noticed it taking a toll on Carsyn. Back in Jan we had decided that we weren't going to do any traveling this year and that we were going to get the car paid off. well since I got pregnant we had to make a trip to Idaho to see the midwife and then we had to go to a family thing in St. George. And that brings me to another topic. While we were in Idaho we got to visit my Mom. It's obvious that she is struggling. She had been waiting for an appointment with a Neurologist. Well, about a week or so after we had come home Mom collapsed on Dad and was put in the ER they admitted her to the Boise Hospital where she finally got to see the Neurologist. The diagnoses was pretty grim. Mom was given 6 mo-1 year to live. They say she has a disease called CJD It's a brain killing disease. So Chad and I decided that we need to be back in Idaho for the time being. We are moving back into our house in Nampa on June 30th. We think Chad has a spot at the Mt. Home store. Yes it will be hard since it's over an hour commute. Our plan is to get a little camp trailer with a shower for him to just stay over there on the days that he works his 3 on. SO anyway things are a bit on edge right now with Moms diagnoses. She doesn't believe it she went to see her Kineseologist (most likely didn't spell that right) And she says the that Dr. is wrong. And that it's a parasite in the spinal fluid that is causing the brain problems. so we will see. My Dad is keeping a blog for my Mom's progress http://www.followpatsy.blogspot.com/ or you can also find it in my blog list under "Mom's Progress" Now I know that now I've put this out in the open I'm going to get lots of emails and phone calls of sympathy but before you do can I just say. I really don't want to talk about it. I know I'm loved and I know you care, but I have had so much hit all at the same time that right now I just want to keep my space. Just keep us in your prayers.

Stupid Cable Guys!

On the side of my building right out my bedroom window there is a box and the bottom had a small opening in it and a Momma birdie made a nest in there. For the last few weeks I've been hearing cute little baby birdie noises, and been watching the Momma bird. Well today there were some stupid Bresnan workers that were inside that box. it looked like they put the nest on top of the box. Later I saw the Momma bird back at the nest and I did see the babies but tonight at 10pm we were outside and it's cold and starting to rain. The wind had blown most of the nest on the ground 1 of the 3 babies was on the ground and Momma wasn't there =( Chad got a tube and scooped up the baby on the ground and put it back on top and put some more nest up there. I just hope Momma comes back.

Rumors and Secrets.

That's all I'm going to say.

Happy Birthday to my Corbyn who is 3 now!

Ya know, There are so many times when I just want to go off at some people, or go off about a certain subject but I've learned a long time ago that I just need to bite my tounge to keep the peace.

My wake up greeting

SO this morning I'm laying in bed with the baby and Corbyn comes in. This is how the greeting went.

Me "Good Morning"
Corbyn "Mom, It's not dark outside anymore"
Me "I know, the sun is out"
Corbyn "Get out yer bed"

What ever happened to morning snuggles and kisses?