No Motivation

Today I woke up with absolutly no motivation. Sadly though the day must go on. Tomorrow is Chad's day 1 of 3 days off so I must clean the house today so we don't have to take time away from dad cleaning. So here is my "To Do" list.

• Shower
• Dishes (I didn't do them last night =(
• Laundry
• My bedroom
• Carsyn's Home Work
• Living room
• Coles Room
• Vacuum
• Dust
• Get kids Dressed
• Make dinner (Helloooo crock pot)
• Make list of Errands that need done tomorrow
• Bathroom

I'm sure there is more that I will find. However I think the FIRST thing that needs to be found is my motivation.

Valentine Fun

I know this is a bit late but this is what we did for Valentines day. The boys had a lot of fun.

Valentine Budget.

So as everyone probably knows we've been budgeting. It's been great for us. When we do our budget every month we plan $50 for gifts (whatever occasion may come up) well since it's Vday I would get to spend $25 on CHad and him the same on me. Well We decided a few weeks ago that we're ok not doing the whole Vday Hoopla! Who wants to spend $$ on flowers that will just die in 3 days, or get choclates that make you fat? LOL. So we decided to put the kids in bed early and have a nice dinner by ourselves. So this morning CHad came in and said Happy Vday and he told me he got me something..I got really mad. But then he told me the gift was that he put the $50 that was set aside for gift, onto the credit card...Woo Hoo...$50 closer to paying it off! I love you Honey!

Today was a little better day, if it weren't for lat night. For the life of me I could not fall asleep. I finally gave up and went out to watch the Olympics. I went back to bed around 1:30 and fell asleep around 2is. But that didn't last long when both the little ones started waking up. Hubby got up with them but since they were crying for hours (every time he tried to put them back to bed) I was awake. I ended up taking the baby to sleep with me (not that we did much of that) So anyway, I got up at 7:30 to start getting ready for Church. My throat wasn't "bad" my body aches were at bay but my cough is getting noticeably worse. I could hardly stand when I went to the kitchen where Chad was so he sent me back to bed. He took the boys to church (he is so wonderful) and I barely remember them get ready for church then the next thing I knew they were getting home. Wow. Did I really sleep that long? So anyway. Chad heads back to work tomorrow so hopefully the rest I got today will get me through the next 3 days.

So, I sill felt bad this morning. By afternoon felt a little better. But then by the evening I feel the yucks again. I was pondering as to why I'm sick and nobody else around me is. I think I've come to the conclusion, it's stress. My body has never done well with stress. Even as a teenager I would get sick the minute something "stressful" accrued. Now as an adult of course the stress levels are a bit higher then they were when I was 17 lol. Right now the uncertainty of the near future is taking it's toll. Dealing with our renter whose lease is up April 30th. She is talking she may not resign. hmm I'm not loving the idea of paying $800 in rent here as well as an $800 mortgage back "home" (yes I still call it that) There are other uncertainties that are on our minds that will hopefully be put to rest in the next week or so. I know for sure that my family could do with out my stress..lol..I think they're tired of getting yelled at...Yes for those who still think I'm a perfect "Molly Mormon" I do yell. Just wait and the perfect Mormon image you have of me in your head will go away. ha ha ha.
Anyway I'm trying to coupe, please keep us in your prayers. My children's safety depends on it lol.

Feeling a little worse today. My throat is bad. My body aches are worse. The house is trashed from yesterday so that isn't helping feel better (I have a hard time relaxing when there are things to be done). If I can just get through today Chad has the next 3 days off. Wish me luck.

Update well I managed to do the dishes, do Carsyn's schooling, and throw the towels in the washer. however I think that will be the end of my progress today. I've already pulled out a freezer meal.

Today is Chads 2nd of 3 days at work and usually today is the day I start getting laundry washed so on his 3 days off the house is (fairly) clean. I've had a headache every day for the last 4 days then I woke up this morning to a sore throat (another things that has been happening often) and body aches..ugh I hope I'm not getting sick. Before Chad left for work he got me a pillow and blanket and moved me to the couch since all the kids were up. He said not to worry about doing Carsyn's schooling today and that he would make it up on Friday (this will be the first day we've missed in a long time). So anyway. Here I am laying on the couch feeling like crap stressing about not having the house cleaned by Friday (Chads day's off) Not doing Carsyn's school, and worrying about what to make for dinner because I feel guilty using 1 of the 10 freezer meals Chad and I made last week. argh why to I do this to myself.....I can have sick days too can't I?

Update, I did end up making dinner. I made stuffed shells since they're pretty easy. However the lovely grateful children didn't eat anything. Ohwell that means left overs for another meal.

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